love is in the air..
There is a line that Jamie says in 'A walk to remember', .."its like the wind, i cant see it..but i feel it..i feel wonder and beauty, joy, love..its everything.." It potrays one of the most beautiful romance that i have watched in a movie..and Jamie,a girl like her, with her simple 1st wish , to marry in the church where her mother married..its all so beautifully constructed..i know im talking like im giving a movie review..but, suddenly i cant help remembering it..and the beautiful song in it that i love..
"It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be good baby
Time I have been patient for so long
How can I pretend to be so strong?
Who can I choose baby?
Feeling its true baby
If I’m asking you to hold me tight
then it’s gonna be all night
It’s gonna be Love
It’s gonna be great
It’s gonna be more then I can take
It’s gonna be free
It’s gonna be real
It’s gonna change everything I feel
It’s gonna be sad
It’s gonna be true
It’s gonna be me baby
It’s gonna be you baby
It’s gonna be...Its gonna be Love
Time can not rest our love to be fool
How can you pretend to be so cruel?
Maybe it’s me baby
Maybe it’s you baby
Maybe it’s everything we’ve been dreaming of
We waited long enough
Its gonna be Love
It’s gonna be great
It’s gonna be more then I can take
It’s gonna be free
It’s gonna be real
It’s gonna change everything I feel
It’s gonna be sad
It’s gonna be true
It’s gonna be your the one to do
It’s gonna be me baby
It’s gonna be you baby
The sooner you let two hearts beat together
The sooner you know this love is forever
It’s gonna be love
Love needs time now or never
Its gonna be love
You really got to believe
it’s gonna be strong enough
Its gonna be Love
It’s gonna be great
It’s gonna be more then I can take
It’s gonna be free
It’s gonna be real
It’s gonna change everything I feel
It’s gonna be sad
It’s gonna be true
It’s gonna be your the one to do
It’s gonna be hard
It’s gonna be stuff
It’s gonna be more then just enough
It’s gonna be LOVE
It’s gonna be Love
It’s gonna be sad
It’s gonna be true
It’s gonna be me baby
It’s gonna be you baby
It’s gonna be me baby
It’s gonna be you
It’s gonna be real
It’s gonna be love
by Mandy Morre and Wow..u gotta listen and see how beautifully its sung too..
okay, this is what happened. A young friend here today told us about his love. It was funny and great to see him talking about her.So young and in love.The way he is trying to find her, saying she is the only one. And to see another one madly in love, truly and madly in love...and to come back to my room and watch 'a walk to remember'...
There was this time when my heart never failed to miss a beat, when this guy walked past..and i sank in that..and it passed..then there was this another one,who came along, and my heart missed a beat again...but those were what you talked and laughed with your frens about, "silly pup crushes"...but the real one, i wonder, how will it be..when i will never recover that missed heart beat..i guess i will have to wait, for the real bug to bite..
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Friday, November 27, 2009
Matrimony
A very close friend of mine,who is a Muslim,always worries about going into higher studies, coz , she says if she doesnt find her way soon, she is afraid that she'll be hurried into marrying someone and starting a family.Kudos to her attitude for that.The less urgent spirit of the rest of us haven't gotten us into taking the impending entrance test that serious yet.A week ago, I met my classmate, while we both were getting photocopies for the next day's university exam. She gave me a near heart-attack by declaring that her marriage has been fixed. She also gave me an on-the-spot invitation to her engagement next week. My first instinct thought was to ask, "How could do they do this to you??!!" ( I meant her parents), followed by a more sympathising (I just cudn't empathise!) "Im so sorry for you". From there i could've gone on like, "Cant you do anything about it?", or a "Who is this moron robbing you of all the happiness of your carefree days.." etc on and on. But I was stupid. And very charactersitically so! Because, I saw immediately that she was clearly happy. And then i thought about perspective. May be, it was like how they said about "the world appearing yellow to someone who looks on through a yellow glass paper"!!
My neighbour has a young daughter of around 3 years. She is such a l'l angel and all of us love her with much affection. She was recenlty taken to a nursery where , when she apparently 'misbehaved' ( read refusing to eat food properly and sleep when they instruct her to), the person who runs the nursery said, "Shouldn't she be l'l better behaved, after all she should go into another home when the time comes"!!. After that, her parents never send her there. This little piece caused a lot of laughter when the rest of us heard- she, after all, was a girl of three !!
When i was little, i used to swear to amma that i will not marry.I used to tell her, I 'll live with her, 'Happily ever after'. Amused, she would say, "Okay, that would be fun."
A while back, when my friend told me about his 'true love', i kept discussing with another friend about our own respective ideas of 'Mr.Right'. It was very amusing and even straining, because when you think, you have to think very hard to list all the qualities that ur "Mr.Right" will have! Coz, i had never really ruled out the possibility, but was skeptical coz, i think, sometimes, life offers only a few chances of getting to meet that one person. It would've been convenient if there really was a solution of something like "imprinting" (if u have read all of the twilight saga, you would know) as it saves a lot of hardships and troubles!
The first time my mother met my father, it was, what do you call when u see each others photographs first? "A photographic meet"?? It was just that. And then they meet at the engagement and everything was fixed by the elders. Ofcourse, the era being a little more progressed than the oldest, both of them got their say of 'yes or no' and which place you want to get married, which way etc etc. I marvel at my mother's courage back then. I always failed to see if at all any courage or sacrifice was made necessary on my father's part. It was she who had to transplant her life from her home to his. I picture her formulating plans in mind about how best to get in good terms with each of my father's family members, and his was a joint family family- so much more people to live with. Or maybe, it dint work that way. She might have never had to think it through, plan it. Things might have just fallen in place.She might have always been best friends with my father's people, now hers too, from the very beginning, as she is now. I 'll never know. And thus i marvel at the courage of my mother, and my grandmother and my great grandmother and generations of women before them, who makes part of my blood and flesh. But the very institution of marriage continues to make me wonder..and feel terrorised, may be..
There may not be any reason why i should be so worried. May be it is my concern about my friend. I wish her good luck, and a very happy life. And I do see that my mother never really had any damage by marrying my father. Except her occasional taunts about my father, which she makes in the form of complaints, about how she never really got a lot of choice coz she agreed to the first person who came to meet her, my father. And that always brings about a quiet smile in my dad's face, which is really handsome to look at. And then i think that it must have been an easy choice for her. Coz my dad was very handsome then,and he is still, even with his fair share of grey hair (which he refuses to dye , which i like). He had brilliant educational qualification and family. So, may be it was easy for her, even with all the risk involved..Or may be im being unnecessarily crazy. I 'll never know. Or maybe i will find out some day. But i hope i 'll meet my Mr.Right on that way!!
My neighbour has a young daughter of around 3 years. She is such a l'l angel and all of us love her with much affection. She was recenlty taken to a nursery where , when she apparently 'misbehaved' ( read refusing to eat food properly and sleep when they instruct her to), the person who runs the nursery said, "Shouldn't she be l'l better behaved, after all she should go into another home when the time comes"!!. After that, her parents never send her there. This little piece caused a lot of laughter when the rest of us heard- she, after all, was a girl of three !!
When i was little, i used to swear to amma that i will not marry.I used to tell her, I 'll live with her, 'Happily ever after'. Amused, she would say, "Okay, that would be fun."
A while back, when my friend told me about his 'true love', i kept discussing with another friend about our own respective ideas of 'Mr.Right'. It was very amusing and even straining, because when you think, you have to think very hard to list all the qualities that ur "Mr.Right" will have! Coz, i had never really ruled out the possibility, but was skeptical coz, i think, sometimes, life offers only a few chances of getting to meet that one person. It would've been convenient if there really was a solution of something like "imprinting" (if u have read all of the twilight saga, you would know) as it saves a lot of hardships and troubles!
The first time my mother met my father, it was, what do you call when u see each others photographs first? "A photographic meet"?? It was just that. And then they meet at the engagement and everything was fixed by the elders. Ofcourse, the era being a little more progressed than the oldest, both of them got their say of 'yes or no' and which place you want to get married, which way etc etc. I marvel at my mother's courage back then. I always failed to see if at all any courage or sacrifice was made necessary on my father's part. It was she who had to transplant her life from her home to his. I picture her formulating plans in mind about how best to get in good terms with each of my father's family members, and his was a joint family family- so much more people to live with. Or maybe, it dint work that way. She might have never had to think it through, plan it. Things might have just fallen in place.She might have always been best friends with my father's people, now hers too, from the very beginning, as she is now. I 'll never know. And thus i marvel at the courage of my mother, and my grandmother and my great grandmother and generations of women before them, who makes part of my blood and flesh. But the very institution of marriage continues to make me wonder..and feel terrorised, may be..
There may not be any reason why i should be so worried. May be it is my concern about my friend. I wish her good luck, and a very happy life. And I do see that my mother never really had any damage by marrying my father. Except her occasional taunts about my father, which she makes in the form of complaints, about how she never really got a lot of choice coz she agreed to the first person who came to meet her, my father. And that always brings about a quiet smile in my dad's face, which is really handsome to look at. And then i think that it must have been an easy choice for her. Coz my dad was very handsome then,and he is still, even with his fair share of grey hair (which he refuses to dye , which i like). He had brilliant educational qualification and family. So, may be it was easy for her, even with all the risk involved..Or may be im being unnecessarily crazy. I 'll never know. Or maybe i will find out some day. But i hope i 'll meet my Mr.Right on that way!!
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
[CAUTION :- Any wayward or stray reader who has stumbled upon this page may skip the rest coz the article below is not worth ur precious time.It is posted in my near vain attempts to retain this blog.
But My friends, who r visiting under my sheer compulsion may read on, coz u r already used to my non chalant chattering, no harm will come from an extra dose ;)It might even come as a welcome change that u r reading now and not listening !!]
Right now, im supposed to be working on my seminar. But for some mysterious reasons
( read 'lazyness and a constant sense of irresponsibility') im online and doing a bit of orkutting and yahoo chat.For the record,i created this in the month of March 2008, when i thought i was on the verge of becoming a great writer,judging by the way my thought process was churning out (lol!!).As it turned out, the torrent was only a way of getting out of the boredome coz during that time, if i remember right, i had some exam to concentrate on.It is when i sit in front of text books that i realise i have a thousand other ways to pass the time.
If blogs had a life of their own, mine would have hated me sorely for such a life of sunken loneliness. Probably it would have told other blogs over their coffee time chat that he/she ( i havent figured out yet whether its a he/she.since it belongs to me, it would be she i suppose?)is survived by a lazy scum bag of a girl who signs in for nothing except to try out different palettes for the blog and see how it appears!!or to check out on other blogs and to disappear without posting a comment!
Anything dear to one would be special, right? Though, uncared for, i still feel close to my blog!So anybody who would tell me to just delete it if u wont write ,i wont listen.What amuses me most now is the name i gave it in the beginning. I think now that "Silent space" or "Lazyness Realm" would have been more appropriate.Kinda symbolic.But for the time being, let the name remain.Coz friends are messaging me asking about the seminar preparations.I had told them that im planning to complete the whole thing today ,but here im,blogging.So here i go,promising to come back again, coz in all probability, i will be working on the seminar tomorrow too!!
But My friends, who r visiting under my sheer compulsion may read on, coz u r already used to my non chalant chattering, no harm will come from an extra dose ;)It might even come as a welcome change that u r reading now and not listening !!]
Right now, im supposed to be working on my seminar. But for some mysterious reasons
( read 'lazyness and a constant sense of irresponsibility') im online and doing a bit of orkutting and yahoo chat.For the record,i created this in the month of March 2008, when i thought i was on the verge of becoming a great writer,judging by the way my thought process was churning out (lol!!).As it turned out, the torrent was only a way of getting out of the boredome coz during that time, if i remember right, i had some exam to concentrate on.It is when i sit in front of text books that i realise i have a thousand other ways to pass the time.
If blogs had a life of their own, mine would have hated me sorely for such a life of sunken loneliness. Probably it would have told other blogs over their coffee time chat that he/she ( i havent figured out yet whether its a he/she.since it belongs to me, it would be she i suppose?)is survived by a lazy scum bag of a girl who signs in for nothing except to try out different palettes for the blog and see how it appears!!or to check out on other blogs and to disappear without posting a comment!
Anything dear to one would be special, right? Though, uncared for, i still feel close to my blog!So anybody who would tell me to just delete it if u wont write ,i wont listen.What amuses me most now is the name i gave it in the beginning. I think now that "Silent space" or "Lazyness Realm" would have been more appropriate.Kinda symbolic.But for the time being, let the name remain.Coz friends are messaging me asking about the seminar preparations.I had told them that im planning to complete the whole thing today ,but here im,blogging.So here i go,promising to come back again, coz in all probability, i will be working on the seminar tomorrow too!!
Saturday, June 7, 2008
"THE END OF THE DAYS"-an appeal to d Uni.
coming to hav a l'l talk,der is one thing dt has got me worrying abt for d past one week-"d end of d days"!!not one of those intellectual, concerned-abt-d-wat will happen to our universe-talk for sure!! i am talking abt d end of my sem break. "d most loved-reverred-cherished-enjoyed-nd sometimes even sweared at for cause of boredom-sem break" has come to an end- yeah even before i knew it..!!a very sad note indeed..nd wat happens next??i face d proposal of having to go to college from d next day onwards..not a very looking-forward-to sorta idea..
nd now that i talk about it,i realise der have been a couple of good things abt sem break afterall.not dt i dint appreciate it at d beginning,d "end of d days" make it far more important dan it ever was!!
it is a "semester" break which cud be without wrong also called "study break":thus having enlightened my parents d very eve of d starting of d glorious days,i made myself on d safe side,wid an assured no "r u not supposed to open ur book this hols??" queries, no sighing-behind-my-back during d hours-on-end devotion to net,no restrictions for late night movie watching,no counting of hours wen u sleep round d clock,no raised eyebrows for kicking up excuses to always go out...!!,this is one hell of a holiday u r enjoying..!
However,v hav bin told of a sembreak for quite sometime now...nd since d curiosity cudn't b contained longer,everyone started a info-hunt on deir own abt d possible sem break.Unfortunately,wat v came up wasnt pretty exciting stuff, seniors dint help much too-many put it off as a regular rumour nd others havn't even heard abt it...other very helping seniors even tried to shake us off d idea by reminding dt this thing has never ever happened before in d uni-history..."optimistic to d core" s d approved attitude here at college, "to d extreme" wen it comes to holidays nd postponing of exams..
But all of us continue to hope..for the blessing to come..
nd now that i talk about it,i realise der have been a couple of good things abt sem break afterall.not dt i dint appreciate it at d beginning,d "end of d days" make it far more important dan it ever was!!
it is a "semester" break which cud be without wrong also called "study break":thus having enlightened my parents d very eve of d starting of d glorious days,i made myself on d safe side,wid an assured no "r u not supposed to open ur book this hols??" queries, no sighing-behind-my-back during d hours-on-end devotion to net,no restrictions for late night movie watching,no counting of hours wen u sleep round d clock,no raised eyebrows for kicking up excuses to always go out...!!,this is one hell of a holiday u r enjoying..!
However,v hav bin told of a sembreak for quite sometime now...nd since d curiosity cudn't b contained longer,everyone started a info-hunt on deir own abt d possible sem break.Unfortunately,wat v came up wasnt pretty exciting stuff, seniors dint help much too-many put it off as a regular rumour nd others havn't even heard abt it...other very helping seniors even tried to shake us off d idea by reminding dt this thing has never ever happened before in d uni-history..."optimistic to d core" s d approved attitude here at college, "to d extreme" wen it comes to holidays nd postponing of exams..
But all of us continue to hope..for the blessing to come..
empty empty...
im feeling a l'l let down by d profound subtleness tat echoes around here(u mit call it emptiness,but i tend to be more gentle,hey its my blog im talking abt,not urs!!)...yeah,very much understandable,considering if even u dont care abt ur blog,then whu wud??
blogging is not as easy as i thot (or wanted) it to be..coz d urge to write has to come naturally..as one of my writer friend says,"u cant will it to come"!!too true...!! nd der is also this another big trouble,coz der mit be a million different things u can write abt,of which it is most likely tat in 9 out of 10 cases , d "million minus one things" wud sound to be essentially sleep inducing for all those who read..so der u go!!wat can u possibly talk abt then???!
no idea..guess it will take time finding out..till then, its amateurist postin..
blogging is not as easy as i thot (or wanted) it to be..coz d urge to write has to come naturally..as one of my writer friend says,"u cant will it to come"!!too true...!! nd der is also this another big trouble,coz der mit be a million different things u can write abt,of which it is most likely tat in 9 out of 10 cases , d "million minus one things" wud sound to be essentially sleep inducing for all those who read..so der u go!!wat can u possibly talk abt then???!
no idea..guess it will take time finding out..till then, its amateurist postin..
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
changing times
5 years back,wen i was in my school,i wudn't hav bin surprised if one of my frens came up nd said,"so its true dt u actually hav a set of parents!!this is d first time i 've seen them inside d school campus!!".Too true..But now dey attend all d pta meetings at my sis's school,which is wer i studied too..nd im sure if d old teachers wer all der, dey would hav been too taken aback by my folks presence..!!dey even find deir time to attend seminars conducted at school abt parenting!! worse still dey make it a point to come eagerly to my college,each time dey get d pta committee's invite card..!! wat the !!wat s happening to my parents !!
and this kept me thinking abt myself..could it be dat d way i hav grown up made them rethink abt deir own ways of parenting??hav i disappointed them too much???i hope not..
and this kept me thinking abt myself..could it be dat d way i hav grown up made them rethink abt deir own ways of parenting??hav i disappointed them too much???i hope not..
Sunday, May 4, 2008
my first ever post..
blogger would probably tell u that i hav been in here since march'08, hard put u would be though,in finding an earlier post than this. I do regret the lack of activity.The mysterious(!) absence of written stuff could be attributed to a recent trait i hav inherited..or rather, imbibed, (from where, i cant possibly say!)... sloth nd sleep!!
but now seem to be the perfect timing to do a bit of penning, 'typing' in this case..
thanks to the rescheduling of academic calender kerala university is attempting now,a decent break (the uni blessed us wid sem break) from all the academic stuff was the exact thing i was craving for...
abt one week before,i were to be found dumbed beneath an amassing amount of record work, assignments and related stuff..all in d midst of lectures which were becoming trifle too boring..not that life all on a sudden became too trying for me..but i badly wanted a break from d whole submission stuff!!
nd now comes d very refreshing sem break..and i hav no intention of turning it into a futile holiday...free time gone wasted cant be afforded always..nd here starts my experimentation wid d world of blogging...wishing happy blogging days for me..signing off,
but now seem to be the perfect timing to do a bit of penning, 'typing' in this case..
thanks to the rescheduling of academic calender kerala university is attempting now,a decent break (the uni blessed us wid sem break) from all the academic stuff was the exact thing i was craving for...
abt one week before,i were to be found dumbed beneath an amassing amount of record work, assignments and related stuff..all in d midst of lectures which were becoming trifle too boring..not that life all on a sudden became too trying for me..but i badly wanted a break from d whole submission stuff!!
nd now comes d very refreshing sem break..and i hav no intention of turning it into a futile holiday...free time gone wasted cant be afforded always..nd here starts my experimentation wid d world of blogging...wishing happy blogging days for me..signing off,
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